It's hard when something is burning on your heart so deeply, and you can't share it. My heart is burning today for two friends I love dearly, each for different reasons.
The great thing about God revealing things to you is the confidence it gives you in that area of your life, the bad part about that is trying to relay that to someone disconnected from God without coming across as arrogant and polarizing is almost impossible. Thank God that he has enough grace for all of us!
God has transformed me. He's taken all my broken parts and somehow reformed them into something completely new, something whole. There is no proper amount of gratitude that can be shown, no amount of praise that can come close to being enough. But when you are able to break through a stronghold that has been in your mind for 30+ years, that's transformative. How can you possibly stay the same?
But this transformation has cost me some that I love. And if you think you can go into the deeper things of God and it not isolate you, you're not being realistic. "Indeed, I count all things loss because of the surpassing worth of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ" (Phil. 3:8). Paul said it best, once you've tasted the deeper things of Christ, there is nothing you won't give up for him. But I think on those relationships lost or suffering because of my commitment to Christ. My heart aches for the ones I know intimately and deeply; but that I know will not receive what it is I have to give them. It is a sorrowful reality, to have found the answers to the questions everyone's asking but many can't see because the idea of it is too radical or too costly for them to embrace.
It is not arrogance from which I speak but from the humility of receiving the grace of God. But Satan's greatest pleasure is to turn God's grace against Him, to turn His love against Him, and to put a spin on every truth, especially the most obvious ones. We've heard these truths before. Jesus saves. God loves us so much he gave us his son. These are living words of truth and power that we've sucked the life out of to the point that they are meaningless to the masses. I've heard these and other truths a thousand times in my lifetime yet not until now have I had a revelation of their true meaning and impact on my life. You cannot intellectually comprehend the bible, you cannot cut and paste the parts that fit into your scheme of life and ignore the rest. It takes God to reveal God to us. Without his intervention, we cannot understand. And in our - I won't say ignorance because that's derogatory, many simply have seen no real example of God's grace and love in others to know its realness - absence of revelation, we make so many secret concessions in our lives that we can't hear or feel Gods presence in our lives anymore. So we modify what we know of God to suit ourselves instead of seeking truth.
I pray for a revelation of your spirit to fall upon those who I love but cannot reach. I pray for you to break through their dullness of spirit and give them a taste of what they are missing. I pray for their safety and peace, I pray that they seek you out in faith just enough to penetrate that first deeper layer. I pray that I am able to love them well and to show them your transforming power and grace through that love. And in the name of Jesus, I cast away all demonic activity penetrating their lives and minds, long enough for a moment of clarity to wash over them and set them on a path toward you. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
